Again.
The worst feeling ever when your parents said you don’t deserve to be their child. it hurts. i may not be a good daughter,but please just know that i love you Mom and Dad /: you both won’t declare me as your daughter too huh. well i guess i’m always the one who brought shame to the family by the way i dressed,the music i listen to,the friends i am with. wtf. atleast i don’t abandon my studies. i always try my best to score well for exams and do my best in school. but now you both told me to stop schooling. fuck,i really don’t understand what the fuck os wrong with you both. seriously. whatever la.
LIFE.
Hais I really don’t know what to do now. Seriously, I no longer find a reason to lilve. Hais. Yeah, I don’t know but I feel like mum and dad kinda hate me for whatever I did and everything about me. Hais. Whatever things I did I’ll get scolded for it or whatever fuck. Hais. Come on,I know how to take care of myself. Hais. And yeah they kinda said I always bring shame to the family. Why oh why didn’t you just give me away to someone else? Why? Tell me. Hmm, this sucks, really. Mum said I didn’t care for family and stuffs, I always be there for my friends instead. Come on, she don’t know how much I cried for her and dad when they fought. How much money I used to pay for some of my school stuffs since I know we’re unstable at times. Hais there’s just so many stuffs. I was even there for you when your mum were not in good terms with you. I was there hugging you, crying with you. What more do you want from me seriously? Studies wise,I passed all my module eventhough I may not have a good attendance. But I studied harh for the exams and managed to score well. Hais,I balanced my time with my family and friends and you said I don’t care about the family and stuffs. Oh come on,MUM DON’T EVEN FUCKING KNOW MY FUCKING AGE. So,what have you gotta say about that? Hais, seriously fuck everything can. You know what, I can say this back to you. You’re always busy with someone else’s family and you don’t fucking care about me as your daughter. Try to think of it,pernah tak kau ajak aku duduk ngan kau bersembang Tanya apa aku minat,siapa kawan2 aku. Pernah tak? Oh yes pernah,tu pun aku yang pergi kat kau,mengadu pasal kawan2 aku atau ex boyfriend aku. So, what now? Kau sendiri taktau pape pasal aku,abeh kau nak kata aku macam gini la apa la. Thanks la eh.
Seeya guys tomorrow! Gonna bring a marker so they can sign on my shirt hehe <3
never recieve these much before hehh.
